Archive for April, 2008

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hands raised.

April 30, 2008

third one for the day.

how interesting the common action for surrender is two hands raised in the air.
if you don’t have a white flag, you’ll drop your arms and raise your hands.

and how interesting the common action of worship is hands raised.
i never attended a ‘how-to’ worship course before, but yet, I’ll raise my hands up into the air and I raise my voice in worship.

I will follow after you, so long as my soul lives, I will lift up my hands unto thy name oh Lord..

could it be, worship is surrender?

call me slow, many books were written on worship and surrender…. many good books were written expounding on this topic before…

but i find it refreshing, in fact - a relief to experience ’surrendering-worship’…

daddyGod is never early nor late, he rescues up just in time.

before the knife plunges into issac – a ram was provided.
before the walls of Jericho fell - rahab tied the red cord to she window
before adam and eve left the garden – God clothed them
before their clothes burnt – Jesus stood amongst the three men in the furnace
before i was born – Jesus hung on the cross for me.

in every incident, every case, every story – i don’t see any possibility of how can any of us even find a way out from our crisis. none of us could rescue ourselves.

it’s in these helpless moments – Jesus dives in to rescue us.

it’s when I cry – Jesus take the wheel! and immediately he takes over and drives.

can we worship in our darkest moments?

and we lift up our hands in surrender – when strengthless and in need of help.

King David worshipped when in doubt, worshipped in joy, worshipped in pain, worshipped in victory, worshipped in trials…

read the psalms, read the books of Samuel, read the Chronicles….whenever David worshipped the Lord, help comes, victory ensues… even when David sinned - committed murder and adultery, he worshipped – knowing his grave mistake, he sought the Lord. Though his first child with Bathsheba died, Solomon, came along and guess who succeeded David - the son whom David had with Bathsheba…Solomon (who is also the wisest man on earth).

There’s grace, and grace flows when we’re in surrendering-worship.

when circumstances are unbearable – lift up your hands and worship.
when you can’t wait no more – lift up your hands and your voice – worship.
when you’re hardpressed and tired – just lift up even a finger; just worship.

and see how faithful is Jesus - watch the great extent of the faithfulness of our beloved saviour.

Grace flows in worship-surrender.

Lord, give me shalom – rest. (:

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living…

April 30, 2008

existence is an imperative.
but living is a decision.

many exist, only some have truly lived.

the heart beats, but is it fulfilled?
there is the performance, but the curtain would inevitably close;
masks have to be removed one day, costumes are stripped away.

you exist, but do you live?
you inhale, but do you breathe?

living is a decision.

death comes to all, but life is a gift.

a gift so costly, a gift hung on two wooden beams, affixed with three iron bolts.

there is a proverb that says that the heart is the spring of life. what good is it for a person who gains the world but loses his soul, and kills his heart?

one is wealthy, but lifeless
prosperous but just an empty shell.

he does all the right things,
but he leaves his heart behind.

leaves his heart behind…

lord there is a way to connect the heart with the actions isn’t there?
there is a way to truly live isn’t there?

i’ve merely began to breathe.
i’m learning to breathe in this abundant skies.

lord i don’t care if i have nothing, i have you that’s more than enough.

lord, i’m chasing my dreams, i’m not settling for any lesser.
lord, i’m following my heart, i believe in dreams fulfilled

lord, i wanna live. i wanna breathe, i wanna break free,
lord, set me free and i’ll run in the vast fields of laughter;
lord, give me wings and soar upon the winds of your grace.

lord, put life into this vessel, give me a glimmer in my eyes, put a skip in my step.

i’m not gonna tread lightly and carefully, i’m hopping gleefully to my way home.

what is mere existence when you can truly live. Lord I choose life. (:

 

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time…

April 30, 2008

time…

dad, all we need is time…

a farmer plows the field for sowing…. he takes time and uses it…
he waters the seeds sowed and waits… he takes time and anticipates…

a potter mixes the clay with a little bit of water and kneads.. he takes time and uses it..
he shapes the clay on the turning table, he then bakes the pot in the furnace.. he takes time and anticipates…

a painter mixes the colours as his paints… he takes time and use it..
stroke by stroke he finishes the painting and wait for the paint to dry.. he takes time and anticipates…

Ecc311, you make everything beautiful in your time…

   like a farmer, expect a harvest..
        like a potter, retrieve your pot…
           like a painter, display your masterpiece..

Lord, if you’re in my boat.. then I know I’ll cross over to the other side even if there’s a impending storm..

I’ll put my pillow next to yours and I’ll take a nap with you.. We’ll cross over safely, I’m confident about it..

You promised didn’t you Lord, you’ll calm the storms for me, walk on water with me, take a nap during the storm with me…

Sail through May with me.. (:

make all things new and beautiful… May, the fifth month of the year.. would be a month FULL of grace…

(:

falling slowly, sing your melody and i’ll sing along….

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breathing praises….

April 29, 2008

“when I think about the heavens, the moon and the stars
I wonder what you ever saw in me…

But you took me and you loved,
you’ve given me a crown…

and now I’ll praise your name eternally…”

I miss adventure camp… It was a blessing for me to go through it while I was in NS…

From one NS camp to a Church boot-camp? I thought that was a blessing leh… it was a better camp indeed…

We chiong-ed that night… one am… pitch black darkness… grumblings…. long road…

I had no encouragement that night but Jesus… only Jesus…

It was a church camp right? People are supposed to gracious and stuff right… Your siblings in Christ wouldn’t snap at you right?

Wrong… I saw flesh manifesting.. I saw my own flesh manifest… getting impatient with other impatient people…

Adventure camp was like a reenactment of our ‘outside-church’ life… the face we show other people whom aren’t from church…the attitude we have when we’re annoyed and aren’t ready to ’show grace’ too…

For me church wasn’t the same anymore.. I saw the worst in my ‘church-friends’ – even a friendly game of tag became a war…

but you know what… that camp made real friends out of the wrong ‘religious’ church friends I had…

Though Lucas killed me in the game… though I was angry and annoyed (wah lao friendly fire!) It was after adventure camp when I decided that I would take a bullet for this really really precious brother to me… Yes I would take a bullet for him… that’s how real a buddy he has been to me…

mei shavonne, whom I’ve never saw grumpy… snapped at lucas… Bad attitude arises when you don’t have enough sleep… It was after adventure camp where I really told myself.. I’ve seen mei mei’s flesh.. I’m still sticking by her… I’m her brother afterall…I’ll still be her bro.. blood is thicker than water..

Jansen…Right before adventure camp.. we made cookies together…if not for adventure camp we wouldn’t have met up to bake cookies and pack for camp… I wouldn’t be so close to him… After adventure camp we just supernaturally grew closer as bros… He is my blessing…

Alvin… I’m not even that close to him… Just three words that I said impacted his life… just three word.. and they don’t even run with the camp slogan… “Just let go” instead of “never let go”… and we just supernaturally forge a godly alliance as brothers… and He is prolly one of the reasons why I decided to move to sp…

these are just snippets of the real friends God made for me in adventure camp…if not for adventure camp I wouldn’t made been able to make my life-changing decision to change cg…

if not for adventure camp I wouldn’t have met her….

Campfire…I’m glad Pastor introduced to us the song “How excellent your name is”

because I could relate to the song… as I took that long route march the night before…

I miss adventure camp… I miss the realness I saw in camp… the unmasked people.. no frills.. no religious movement.. but pure Joy of Jesus.. the desperate need for Jesus (even as Christians)

Lord let me relive that adventure camp moment again… the walks under the stars…

Because I need not hurt so much… In adventure camp… it didn’t hurt so much despite the many crazy things they made us do… because I knew you walked with me…

Real life wasn’t very different from adv camp.. It’s just that we faced different kinds of shit la…

but shit is still shit…no matter what context you find it in…

If in adv camp I could trust Jesus.. and sing praises to Him despite the siansation…

how much more real life?

Breathing praises is as easy as breathing air…

It SHOULD be supernaturally natural for me to breathe praises like breathing air…

not the religious kind of ’saying’ praises… it’s the joyous unshamed shouting and singing of praises… like a prisoner set free…

I dunno if you ever read this…but hey it need not hurt so much… L and I are praying for you c….

hang on k? We’ve survived adv camp… Jesus saw us through it… He’ll saw you through this too..

 

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I believe in you Lord..

April 28, 2008

Just love this song so much…. I like the chorus alot…

I’m sure of this…When I have nothing but Jesus… I have everything IN Jesus.. (:

Lord, I believe that nothing is impossible for you.. (:

Healer (Planetshakers version)

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus You’re all I need

My Healer, You’re my Healer

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

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bliss.

April 28, 2008

Lord, you’re just so gracious to me…
you love me so much…

you made all things work out for good… You proved to me that Romans 8:28 stands true even in the most dire of circumstances…

This month.. time and time and time again…you saved me, covered me..restored me…

Lord you know my needs and you meet them and exceed them.. I love you Lord..you’re an awesome savior who does crazy lil things for me la…

Miracle after miracle…

I thank you for the sunshine you’ve placed in my life..
I thank you for the friends you’ve given me…
I thank you for the number of times you saved and covered my butt…

Work and school… Nothing is impossible for you…

So I believe Lord, I believe that you are all I need…

so blissful this month la.. Is this how falling in love feels like? haha…

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fears aside

April 26, 2008

assurance is such a precious thing nowadays…

I guess I wanted some assurance…and I got it la… now my heart isn’t so itchy and fearful…

So it’s with everything I am,
I reach out for your hand,
The hope, the change, the second chance I’ve gained,
On you I throw my life,
casting all my fears aside,
How could greater love than this, ever possibly exist

So I wait upon You now,
With my hands released to You,
Where a little faith’s enough,
To see mountains lifted, moved,

Yeah and I wait upon You now,
Dedicated to Your will,
To this love that will remain,
A love that never fails

I’ve a hope, a second chance and a love that never fails… Dad, your grace amazes me la…

It’s been a very beautiful week…I liked this week alot…

Dad, I give you my work and studies… prosper it Lord…

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His blood.

April 25, 2008

Jesus, I thank you for bleeding for me…

so many issues today… one or two mistakes made…one or two things wrongly said…

yet it’s your blood that covers and cleanses me… It’s your grace that guards and breaks my fall…

Many times I could have it worse…yet your grace super abounded…

My boss could have charged me….but instead she spoke up for my ignorance…
My other boss could have cancelled my leave…yet he made a way for me to go despite my mistakes..

The accuser creeps up and subtlely spews lies…. half-baked truths…

Yes, I’ve prolly made many stupid mistakes… It should have cost me something…

But It is the cross that still stands – reminding me of my Savior’s sacrifice… the cost, the debt I owe.. it’s paid..

so, shut up stupid worm…crawl back to your hole… I won’t believe the lies that I still owe a debt…

I’m on higher ground now…my daddyGod has covered me with His best robes…

I won’t step down and grovel in guilt and condemnation…

my issues are settled… I see the blood of Jesus over my workplace and my work…

no more keys being lost..no more broken property..no more needless stress…

even if anything arises…Lord make me bigger than my problems… those giants are only bread for me… only desserts for me…I will not be stressed anymore…

I have a skip in my step…a gleam in my eye…a new song on my lips.. :)

Hardpressed but not crushed, knocked down but not knocked out, persecuted but not defeated..

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codes.

April 24, 2008

have i become so accustomed to code that I can figure out certain codes?

haha… today was funny la.. I couldn’t imagine that once I forgot about that whole incident..then sometime just hit me…a revelation leh.. haha… DaddyGod you’re an amusing one.. (:

i think my wordpress is ready to go public soon la… i think the shadowblog days have served their purpose…haha.. this wordpress can be un-shadowed and open for any who bothers to read… to be entertained..lol…

WordPress is fun… I miss multiply tho…

My work pc and multiply aren’t good friends… I must blog in HTML at work.. so irritating…

ok, I’m on half day off… I shall log off my pc now.. (:

Thank you DaddyGod for favour…

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Falling slowly

April 24, 2008

Falling Slowly…

I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can’t go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I’m painted black

You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It’s time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You’ve made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You’ve made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing along

Wa, I’m fallen in love with this song mans…It’s stuck in my head…

I like this few lines alot..

“I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that” – Really reminds me of what I told my mom once about me loving my future wife…though I can’t see her nor do I know her yet… haha..

“Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You’ve made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing along” – and I really liked this one alot… There’s hope…a chance.. this song isn’t as emo as I thought it was…it’s full of hope…hope translated in song… Sing your melody.. :)