not being selfish.

the prince is waking up I guess…

I feel selfish by not passing my classmates the online lecture notes. Sure, I reminded them that there’s notes online, sure I taught them HOW to get them. But I’m lazy to email them, simply because I don’t think (well honestly) they deserved it. (heh, so ungracious right?)

Well, there’s no point justifying my actions. But it’s a good learning point. Besides once I taught one person how to access the online notes, she emailed the rest – well at least I ‘indirectly’ help the group get notes.

So much for feeling selfish. heh.

So today I decided I should do something about my life. (for the thousandth time? )

I’m literally tired from acting worldly. Like seriously, I’m lethargic, I face move creative blocks than the amount of  Lego blocks in my baby cousin’s bucket.

Yesterday’s service was more than refreshing, it’s a deep reminder. A reminder of what it means to live the good-godly life. Not godly as in sinless, squeaky, no mistake life. But godly as in cool godly – trip but not fall, score ‘A’s only, happy not depress, talking to God instead of whining to self, real God not bitter self.

SOOOoooo I flipped to Proverbs 12 (Don’t ask why, when, where and how)

And I started from the middle part  of the chapter – it talks about stuff regarding wisdom.

But the J-man (Jesus) blew my mind away when I started reading the start of the chapter.

Proverbs 12:1
To learn, you must love discipline; it is stupid to hate correction.

Ahh, that really makes sense doesn’t it? Reject correction and you’ll feel really stupid for doing so. I experienced that FIRST-HAND. Trust me, it’s a bad feeling.

So I’ve decided Proverbs 12 shall be my ‘carrying proverb’ in this transition stage.

Yes, Dad, Keep me. Keep me. Keep me.