failure.

by e

daddy.. i feel like crap now..

i can’t explain the immense sense of failure i’m experiencing now…

i know i shouldn’t condemn myself.. but i feel like a failure… helpless… crap.

not the first time… that’s all i know… not the first time…

and it hurts… to know you’re unable to do what you wanna do after all…

i don’t know how to move on from here.. i feel like i can’t do much anymore.. i’m tired Lord.. just so tired of not matching up, not meeting expectations, not reaching the standard…

it hurts when you lose the trust of the person you care about most…

Lord, really really Lord.. life does seem so meaningless now… and to think that there was so much hope this morning… it had to be dashed just because i screwed up…

fuck, i’m such an idiot Lord..

you really really need to slap me out of this Lord.. I’m tossing out dreams and gifts and hope one by one..

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